Charmed 2023 Recap: Prologue and Disclaimer

It was my first “big” conference since the Covid Pandemic started in 2020. A lot had changed and a lot had shifted since the last time I had dipped my toes in Kinkland for an extended period of time. Primarily, and internally, I had been wrestling with a part of my personality. I’d always considered myself a bit of a service switch and have always tended to consider the needs of people around me whenever I made any decision, big or small. In short, much of my life I’ve been a bit of a service switch (in both the kinky and non-kinky senses). I’ve had absolutely amazing experiences, the likes of which would make a Penthouse Forum editor blush. However, I haven’t felt necessarily proactive in putting together scenes, but reactive. My focus was generally on “what kind of scene would make this person or group of people happiest.” I very rarely asked “what kind of scene would make me happiest?” This is in no way to say that anyone I’ve ever played with would not have been responsive to my requests, it’s just that I never really gave them the chance.

My general goal for the weekend, therefore, was to be a bit more proactive in shaping my experiences. I began with a chart of possible scenes and shared them with some prospective partners (as well as some other people who I trusted to give me good ideas). I also had a few video chats with people who were going to be there to have general negotiations ahead of the con in order to save time and set expectations.

What follows are scenes – or parts of scenes -  I did with various people at the con. Some asked not to be identified. Some were fine with being identified. Anyone who was mentioned (by name or by proxy) has reviewed this before I published. As I’ve been writing these, they’ve turned out to be the most explicit stories I think I’ve ever written. So, if me describing sexual things I did to other people (or had done to me) doesn’t suit you, please pass these stories by. Thank you for reading.

(I’ll try to keep this as a “master” post as I go through, but no promises.) 

Chapter Zero, Brat-Taming: https://at.tumblr.com/hypno-sandwich/charmed-2023-recaps-chapter-0-brat-taming-101/egsnq8sv5vxb 

Chapter One, Doll Time: https://at.tumblr.com/hypno-sandwich/charmed-2023-recaps-chapter-1-doll-time/rt1j1s2b873j 

Chapter Two, Win-Win: https://at.tumblr.com/hypno-sandwich/charmed-2023-recaps-chapter-two-win-win/5jqw0z3gb1di 

Chapter Three, Hot Negotiation: https://at.tumblr.com/hypno-sandwich/charmed-2023-recap-chapter-three-hot/hn9evsgrirzm

Chapter Four, An Introduction to Fucking: https://at.tumblr.com/hypno-sandwich/charmed-2023-recap-chapter-four-an-introduction/6trhgdxde0fr 

Chapter Five, The Spanks I Get: https://at.tumblr.com/hypno-sandwich/charmed-2023-recap-chapter-five-the-spanks-i/6zt7p589lbe9 

Chapter Six, Please Touch the Exhibits: https://at.tumblr.com/hypno-sandwich/charmed-2023-recap-chapter-six-please-touch-the/p2tcd5ordqp6 

Chapter Seven, What’s the Buzz?: https://at.tumblr.com/hypno-sandwich/charmed-2023-recap-chapter-seven-whats-the/93if8ksdf6vp 

mahgck:

im just laying down but NOT for a nap guys i swear im getting comfy cozy but im NOT GOING TO FALL ASLEEP my ass is NOT laying my head to rest bro im just getting snug as a bug in a rug. FOR NO REASON. ill be awake the whole time bro i swear. me and my stuffed animals are just hanging out dude i PROMISE ill be awake im not sle

Relatable

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thoughtsofdoll:

This Week’s Art Day is a Mind Fuck

No, really! Sir told me to make something in pink that showed how it felt to be mind fucked. This piece is up on Patreon today for people pledged $10 and higher, but here is a black and white version for you all to look at!

If you are interested in seeing more doll art, you can join my Thoughts of Doll Patreon HERE! There’s also pictures of my homework from Sir, links to spread sheets, and sometimes surprise projects!

Also, I have 6 patrons now! I am super excited about that!

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Art Day but Different

This is not what I’d normally post, but I wanted to explain what it means, which I don’t think is obvious from just the picture.

This picture is my homework for October 12, 2023. My direction was: “Please find or draw something that reflects how it feels to be in my control- in silver”. I admit that I had forgotten that I could find something as opposed to drawing something, and I’m letting myself believe that my unconscious had a point to get across to me that could only come out if I made something.

Ultimately, this picture is about disconnection.

I felt disconnected a bit from this homework right from the start, because silver is really fucking hard to photograph or scan properly. In fact, this picture has actually been converted to grayscale because it made it easier to see the lines. Not being able to accurately portray or explain my intent is a giant issue for me, but I had to let go of that and just make something.

So I started with a tiny little cube on the left side of the page, to represent me, and a Very Large Cube on the right hand side of the page, to represent Sir. I am small because making this homework made me feel small and inadequate, and he is large because he is Sir.

That was my complete original concept, but when I looked at it, it didn’t seem complete after all. So, since Sir has me write lines so much, I thought I’d put lines between us, but even as I started doing that, it still didn’t seem right.

I don’t know if you can tell from the picture, but there is a place on my (extremely cheap) graph paper that is misprinted. The horizontal lines are out of alignment and there is a tiny gap going down the length of the page where they don’t meet up. And that felt really appropriate to me, since I often feel very apart and disconnected from Sir since he is often busy and so very far away.

So I continued drawing lines between him and me, freehand and with a very loose hand, and where ever the lines where straight I connected them and where ever the lines were more wild I did not.

(Also because I wanted the lines to look interesting I made them into a shape and I swear I did not realize until after I was done that they kind of look like a cock.)

Normally I would not have posted this publicly, because it is rough and unfinished and crude looking; not a finished piece of art. But over on the Thoughts of Doll discord, we’ve been doing an Inktober art challenge, one of the points of which is that we are confined to a very short time limit in which to draw, so that our forebrains don’t have time to fuck with us as we’re making. And with this drawing I definitely think my unconscious mind had something to say, and not just to me.

You see, it’s okay and normal to feel disconnected from the people in your life from time to time. And if you’re in any sort of long distance relationship, whether it’s D/s like mine and Sir’s or romantic or a mix or whatever dynamic you have, it’s important to acknowledge that it’s work! It takes an effort to maintain relationships! It takes effort to find reconnection! And it’s okay if you need to ask for help doing that!

That’s what I think, anyway.

(Also, Happy Friday the 13th! Boo!)

agd

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Mesmerized by the Pocket Watch

In this short clip she’s mesmerized by the pocket watch as she drifts into trance. You can actually see her body begin to sway back and forth with the watch, feeling it’s magnetic pull.

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carpethedamndiem:

Shinya Suzuki, All In

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timemachineyeah:

People who think this planet was created for humans to be ours are so wild to me

70% of the planets surface is undrinkable uninhabitable death water that sharks love. How is that a human-centric design.

@sharkface-daydreams

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arutai:

Alexandra Daddario by Andrew Eccles